hope for the children :)

I’ve been here for more than a week.  By living together with them, all unfortunate people and glorious people who totally help this shelter, I feel so complete. I cant stop thanking to god that I have such a lovely mother who always wakes me up softly to pray every morning, and always be there when I get home, ready to hear everything I wanna tell. I also cant stop thanking to god that I still have a father who always tries to accomplish every little thing I want, even I never talk a lot with him. I also still have one lovely home in which I own one comfortable and lovely room where nobody can never disturb me there. I cant wait the time I come back home, to see the gate of my house, to smell the morning air around the neighbor, feeding my lovely cats, tidy up my room, and feel how grateful I am given this wonderful family that I still can live with.

I live here with the unfortunate children. Many of them don’t have a parent, many of them are really poor that their parent cant take care and grow them up, so they were sent to this shelter. They are in several ages. Some of them are still 7 or 8, some of them are around 12 to 19. Some of them went to school, but some of them stay in the shelter to do things like cleaning the room and else. This shelter is owned by a very glorious husband and wife whom all the children here call him ‘ayah’. He’s absolutely great and way so inspirational. This couple of husband and wife also created a shelter in Egypt. Most children here who already finished their high school, continue to study in Egypt. These two great people financially support and also build the shelter for them to live. Everytime, people don’t stop give this shelter helps. From days to days, I always see people give this shelter foods, such as instant noodles, chocolates, biscuits, and any other needs. They also always give such a food like pizza hutt, McD, KFC, and else. That makes me happy a lot. Because I can eat chocolates and biscuits as much as I can in my room , LOL :p and not only people who give this shelter help, but also companies. Yesterday I just knew that this shelter was given 10 units of laptop and computers, air conditioners , washing machines,  even two cars, and wifi. I really wish all these helps can give impacts to the unfortunate children here so that they will do have and reach their dreams.  

This is 7 am in here. I just woke the children up for praying and also for school. When I woke them up, they moved too slowly and too lazy. Some of them just stay in their bed doing nothing, until I told them that the car is waiting, they finally got dressed, WITHOUT TAKING A BATH. Some of them took a bath only for five minutes. Some of them just told me that she was dizzy and not able to go to school. After telling the manager here, she said that it was only an excuse so that she could not go to school.  She said this kind of thing happened a lot. Sometimes they all hide somewhere that people couldn’t find to sleep and they all don’t go to school. It was absolutely horrible and I had nothing left to say about this. The manager was really mad and got angry with her and as always, she shouted to almost all of the children here. This little girl then cried in her bed while getting dressed for school. Based on this situation, I try to put myself, in their age, in this kind of condition. If I were them, I would feel everything sucks. I should be far from my mom and my family, I had no one to tell about my feeling, that I were too tired being shouted by person who’s not even my family everyday, I would also be too tired that should be awake until late night to do some exercises and should wake up in the very very early morning to go to school which will end at seven in the evening. I would also feel everything suck because when the manager shouts at me about anything, I would be missing my mom who had sent me here, I would be missing the situation with love together with my family. I would feel everything sucks when I was only 7 and I should survive here alone to prepare my clothes for school tomorrow while I should have been so happy surrounded by my family. By thinking this, I couldn’t help to cry to see this little girl cry. I could understand totally about her feeling, I totally understand that her mind in that time was shouting how this world is so cruel. I understood her totally that everything that she needs are warmth hugs and lots of cares. :’)

I love to spend my times with these children. They always ask me about anything. They asked me about Indonesia, about the foods there, and asked me whether I had once met their favorite artists in Indonesia. They love to hear me share them a story about everything happening in my country. Sometimes I showed them a video on youtube about Indonesia. Their round big eyes couldn’t stop rolling and it is absolutely cute J one day they asked me when I will get back home to Indonesia. I answered on 10^th august, the first day of fasting days. With their innocent faces, they said that I must not come back home to Indonesia. Even if I really should, I should take them all with me. It was absolutely touching and I just cant imagine how I could leave them all when august comes. They asked a lot how it feels to be in the plane as if I will really take them to Indonesia. They said they were too afraid to fly and they said that they also want to take their mommy. That was the point that hurts my neck a lot and I was almost crying in that time. they always come to my room and ask me to play with them. Sometimes I was busy with such a task and stuffs. One thing that made my neck hurt again is that they always try to find my handphone and ask me how to call their mom. I know how it feels to be the 7-year-old girl and miss my mommy, I know how sucked it is. :’(

I feel complete to share my happiness here. Everyday I teach them English and I try hard to give them the best. Sometimes I daydream that someday, they will be someone, great people, and I will remember that their steps started from the classes I have ever made for them. I wish they could be whatever they want to be someday. I wish in the future, they will come back to the shelter as someone who help and already be the very successful person in this country. I really wish that they can be more than I am. I really wish finally they could smile in the end. J