random one

hello happy reader , it's been quite long time not to post something here. soo mucchh to tell . i think i need columns like in a newspaper , or even the far bigger one to write all my current stories. this morning i only wanna post the random one , and perhaps i am going to share some random pictures as well , so enjoy .. !

teh prosa , teh yeni , me , mia , teh windy , teh irma , boy i dont remember the face lool

nadya , and frankly i dont rmember the other faces

let me tell you about the sweetness of facebook technology. this photo had been uploaded to my childhood friend's facebook and she tagged this photo to me. at first , i thought why the heck this soo-old photo was coming to my profile. but when i see the second girl in the row above , with the tawdry ribbon in the head , for heaven's sake that's me.. hahaha . cute , i kind of got a long flashback just when i saw it in the first place.

anyway , the girl beside me whom i called teh prosa , beyond expectations she's got married and have a little cute boy , and now she lives in Bali with her happy family..

i've been terribly hectic around these days. i've got an annoying lecture called interpreting. everyweek , we have to make a paper and we are insisted to write it down with our own hand (computer is banned) on 16 full pieces of foolscaps !! can you imagine that? it repeats everyweek. and i've been damn tired , but what the heck can i do? write and go on.. and about this picture , actually i and my friends share our ASS.es on facebook, we tag each other , and this is so much fun.. a bunch of thanks for facebook, it is really sweet. :)

well , shame on me to share this kind of photo. hehe .. i know my face is really messy but actually this is the photo that aiesec tagged to me , and actually this picture is taken in the Focus Group Discussion , the second selection to be an aiesec.er. and sooo deaad happyy that i made it!! i am accepted as an aiesec member after being a bit pessimistic in the interview selection. i am sooo happy that finally i am a part of that international organization. for the complete story , i'll tell you later on.

devina me gutti putti prisya erina

these are the other tagged photos. let introduce you to my dance sweethearts. hehe .. yes , dance is my highschool thingy and i am soo happy to find these photos back. beside , i am so excited to see my fatty body , cant you see ? in senior high school i am not this skinny. actually , my dance team do a 'breakfasting' last ramadhan. though onnly the five of us , it was so much fun .. and we took a photo in front of our lovely school !

devina me erina putti guti

and suddenly i found this pic. hahaha .. i have no idea why i have a geek look while my friend, lulu , is way soo hot.. loolll

and i miss my girlfweends so damn muchh !!!

wow what a night !!!

my gosh , last night was just unbelievableee .. what a night !

i got things i've never been through before and it was just like .. O MY .. these were the first in my life time and all happened in a night ! can you imagine when you just get all first experiences that you never think they could happen to youu ? and they were like in a dream? and all happened in a night ! woww ..

1. i and my friends were headed from bandung to jakarta for JavaRockin'land and last night i stand in front the stage where Jonas Bjerre sang wif a VOICE OF THE ANGLES !! oooooooo myyyyyyy ! i couldnt believe my eyes !! he's fucking handsome anyway , i think i just wanted to shout "JONAS , let me hug nd kiss youu !!"..

2. maybe i am so out of date but i was just happy when one of the restaurants serve VEGETARIAN food thingy ! hahaha ..

3. to be honest this is my very first experience in my life time when the boyfriend of mine asked me to break up ! hahahahhaa .... wow , and it also happened in the same time in javarockin'land ! wow ..........................................................................

4. after we broke up , I WAS LOST in the middle of sea of the people and couldnt find my friends .. first i just thought to give up and it was like yesss everything will be , will be .. hahahahahahaha ... o my , what a first experience being lost !! ckck !

save me tonight

hello , this is 11.22 pm in the night on sunday. i havent slept yet like always , and i cant blame no one .. maybe about since 5 hours ago i've been sitting in this very room , and i cant say i am not bored.

i am still with missy , visiting friends house. oh sure you dont know , well do you ? missy is my pet , on pet society .. so you guys , this is what i've been up to do , doing pet society on facebook in the whole whole night , d'oh !

so sad , today , exactly maybe from 12:01 am , i've been thinking about my future. yes , last night i dreamed the very same thing like i'm thinking . i dont want to think about what will happen later especially to me. whatever will be , will be. i just keep suggesting that the fate of mine wont be changed whether or not i think hard about it , am i true? and maybe you're right if you say i am afraid. pitty me , when children are too much afraid of monsters , well the monsters in my version are future.

i am afraid i wont have what i've had today. i am afraid i am not with one i am with now . i am afraid i cant do what i've been doing , and that's pathetic while i exactly know it will be , it will happen , no exception .

i tell you , i am not happy enough . i dont do what i suppose to do , what have been conceived in my mind. i should do that , i should go there , i should make it , i should catch it up , i should be this , i should be that , the fact i just seem to stop thinking and dont move. no , never , that's me. i said i wanna be a piano teacher hardly , but now i dont play piano. i said i wanna write , now i dont string up the words. i should feel guilty , then i whisper being one step farther is hard. ahh crap. but it's like really i want to pause my whole life to be like this still.

actually , it's already monday. i've been writing this for hours. and in this late night , i always feel weird with my self , like having a different world , being in the different place , with a different situation , having no one , and it's suffering, terribly. maybe i act like a drama queen , but i am not acting , every late night i do feel it. and i have insomnia so everyday means hell.

a well - done

today , i had nothing worth to doo .. i mean it , so today i just browse many sites , walk several blogs , search for the-online-shopping sites, and many others. well , yes .. maybe those ones are worth it, yeas.. i've been doing that for almost 8 hours ; my back's already hurt and my eyes's already dim. but then i was surprised when i found one of my friend's deviantart in his profile. when i opened it and browse some pictures , i found the pictures of me that i really really like and i've forgotten it. yes , it's been a long time ago since those pictures were captured. it started when one of my friend asked me to join a photo session with numbers of her friends. it was fun. our pictures are taken in one of classes in ITB bandung. i would never imagined that common classy class could be the greatest object!

click here for this photo,please :)

click here for this one

and here for this one

they're a wow ! dont they have a damn great tone and concept?

visit my firend(he did capture me and make such wonderful pictures)'s deviantart here

what a screwy day !!

so many oddish things happened today ..
1. in this bright day , i dont know why i felt so damn cold , that i drank a cup of very hot tea , and wore a sweater. but when i go outside , soooo vice versaaa .. it's hot so bad!
2. today -oh it's my crime to take this up again - is very weird with my new (hopefully temporary) status = single .
3. my catty turns to be so aggressive since the time she was in the 'copulate time' , what do you call this ? a time when you really have a desire to get married ? lol . she moves in the dangerous way , she prefers to be outside much better than inside (however i keep her inside hardly because i wont let those dirty stink cats marry her).
4. i've been having pretty bad dreams ! very bad ... that maybe i'd rather keep my self awake tonight if it continues ..
5. i just suddenly hate my itunes ! i think i get bored with the playlist , i need more fresh and new sooong !! please text me if you have some recommendation artists :)
6. i feel miserable currently . ps : with no reason .. and i hate this condition ..
7. i wonder with my hair. ooohh ... i need a hairdresser so soon!!
8. i feel not comfortable with my face , should i change it ?

actually , i took my baby out this noon. she acted very cute that actually i know she totally hates car-trip.

she comfortably sleep in the dashboard

if i cant keep him , i will keep this baby well :)

in one little 'hello' , we've found so many 'goodbyes'

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that

you see , no ? that time when we've been through together never be that worth for him :')

me to mew

take a look , i put mew on my playlist today ..

after knowing that mew's coming to bandung on august 4th in eldorado bandung was just a gossip , i delete 'seeing mew's concert' from my wishlist. i know indonesia , i said to my self and i tried hard to forget it . i use the money i had earned for the ticket to buy such trivial stuffs and fashion thingy. but look what i've got , mew's coming to indonesiaaaa .. at first i was not so sure that it is for real , and i've checked their MySpace several times , the confirmation about jakarta didnt appear yet. but look , now it exists ! here's mew's shows schedule , and i read the word jakarta there , which means , my big dream now comes truee !!

(click here )

from now on , i will only let my ear hear MEW , preparing my singing along during the concert. oo for heaven's sake , this band's gonna give us the cheeriness so soon. i still couldnt believe in what i heard two days ago , when one of my friends who is freaky , cracky fan of mew as well , told me that mew show will be held on jakarta in javarockin'land festival 2009. aaaahhhh i was so damn speechless. she said that ticket costs only Rp.115.000.00 (click here ), by buying online. actually we should pay an extra money especially for mew performance. so , soon she ordered the ticket for me, and now i am waiting her confirmation about it. i hope there's no constraints ;)
cant hardly wait august 9th .. !

look at my looklet !

THE COWGIRL WEARS TOPSHOP
by : flutterflies

DR. MARTENS ROCKS !
by : flutterflies

click here fer other looks and details ;)

with you , the earth's spinning around in the oh - so - complex rotation

hello , have a good night's sleep
dont let bed bugs bite you ..

yess , those words are easy to phrase to your sweets in one normal night. you text them , you ring them , you -yeah whatever . they are simple , they are usual for you as lovebirds. oh , you call it love , i say 'lovebird' please it's not exactly the word 'love' dont you see the 'bird' behind it ? for fuck's sake it's love .. yess , ever again , i narrate a love.
i mean , it's easy to spend most of times together , share things together , and everything you can do with them and dont forget to add some 'togethers' behind. you can easily miss them , never been able to bring down your longing . you can easily say you love them a heap , yes it's easy ..
but tell to those lovebirds , tell them immediately .. we loose our heart to struggle with our very own conceptions which are always different. we're different , we both are always different in every way and see , nothing we can do to repair it. no - nothing . he will stand in his place , and i will stand in mine , really we've never been in one same footing. during this i assume he never gives me a shit , i dont know he does , but i feel so. so i give him no shit as well , i know we wont again to make reactions , responses , even communications or sort of. i promise him i wont give him a shit , so i will not ! everything seems to be complicated that i'am 100% exhausted already and wanna be off !

so this is 2.55 am in the morning , i'm feeling cold badly , i'm wearing my grandma's thick cardigan , i wish tomorrow i wake up in the end of the day , to forget what i suppose to do , like texting him a good day ......

i always lurbb andy warhol !!

sisters time ; we rocked the mountain ..

i dont know for sure , how long have i not met these girls ...
but i was really dead happy when we're all back around , talking about a high school thingy , hot gossiping ; well yeah though something being stuck in my head that time was all about the mischief of my fucking x - boyfriend , i still love to stand inside the road , seeing nothing but each-other ..

we were having an afternoon lunch together

and yayy ! i got my chairmate back

putting your mind before your mouth is necessary ...
but controlling your emotion is more important

-me, for i love us to be together -

"Anyone can become angry—that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way—this is not easy."
- Aristotle, The Nicomachean Ethics

DIY : cupcakee !!! :D

i dont experience a lot in DIY-thing. i feel there's nothing i should be able to make or stuff,while people still sell for a living ,hehe . especially kind of food. what on earth food do you think i like ? nothing . lol
but i mean it , i dont like eat , so that you see skeleton form in my body
but look what i have done !!!
i 've made cupcakes totally myself -without any kind of help from family haha - from buying ingredient , baking , to putting in order it and VOILA !!

it is not succesed in the very first time because i shrank the cake by opening the oven (oh i just couldnt wait to see them!!) , put chocochips as well as chocolate milk in a huge measurement so it tasted too sweet but then by learning the experiences , i perfectly made a real cupcakes on march 17th!!

i know those candles are too much and i know i am not that good in 'decorating' it , but trust me as you first bite my cupcake , you simply need to bite for more !!!! hahahaha .

"love me for life , live me for love"
look at those words , under the word hadlsalivate ..
this was found accidentally from my friend's bag
and oohhhh ....
this is how you should love and live me :)