today in my village, the rain heavily fell down.

i love to hug the tree trunk with my feet so that the world is turned up side down

and i am gonna do nothing. nothing but clapperclawing

hey yesterday you came with a green umbrella, i hate your bright yellow long-sleved shirt

hey you fare, get around with a sylph, happily gracefully compose a shindig

i am still keeping my chin up, choked by rain water when i was upturned

you looked like a worm.

i wanna scream, yell a whoop. the sound like whoop whoop whoop !

you can fuck the trull

then i will whoop ! like WHOOP WHOOP WHOOP so loudly

I am not joking that in this very hour I am crying because I miss my dad a lot. I don’t know whether it started when my mom texted me in Yahoo Messenger something about my dad’s worrying me so much, or when I just watched the movie named The First Daughter that I just watched just now with my roommates.

Oh I just remember that these days my dad does something that I actually don’t want him to do. When I met him and my mom in Yahoo Messenger and I simply told them what I was doing which was complaining to TN manager about what’s happening in the shelter, my dad immediately called Mr. Ramdan Panigoro and there he goes, he made Mr. Panigoro tried to reach the contacts in Malaysia, and also tried to reach AIESEC Bandung to complain about my condition. They just didn’t know that the problem I got here was not that big and they also didn’t know that it was only a misunderstanding. Now my dad made a problem, he didn’t know that the functional of AIESEC that they were gonna complain to is MY functional, and they will just make my friend’s duty much heavier while I cant help them. That would be so terrible, I don’t know what to do.

I was gonna be angry with him before I realized that I’ve been missing so many days at home and not seeing my dad for almost three weeks. I just realized that I had not done something like moving upstairs from watching TV when my dad got home because I didn’t want a conversation because it will end up with an arguing and quarreling. It’s been also three weeks since I didn’t see him coming to my room, touch every kind of things and asked me everything about them that annoyed me a lot. Now, I am missing those moments.

I am not a daddy’s little girl kind of person. I am not even close with my dad. We never talk more than 10 minutes, even if it last until ten minutes, it should be our arguments that my mom’s gonna ask us to stop. My dad never know about my days, and I wont know about his too because I will never ask. As I remember, it was 5 years ago since the last time my dad always hugs me too tight that I was annoyed and ask him to go. Now, both of us always start a conversation like a lecturer and a student and will end up with a little shouting or even crying because our point of views are always different. I never like my dad, he always say something too tough for me that break my heart. He never be nice to me like a dady to his little baby girl, he now never tell me some jokes, something interesting but the way to move fast, the way to be the best student, the way to work hard, and else. the way he talks this, don’t ever wish I am gonna like it because it always hurts. My dad never say ‘YES’ for any kind of things that I ask. For him, it will always be wrong that everything I do is always far from the ‘right’ word. Even if I didn’t  ask him a permission  to join this exchange, because my dad still will say “NO”. I can even call him the “NO” daddy. Sometimes I couldn’t stand talking to discuss about anything with him because it’s gonna hurt myself even in his first sentence. I prefer to stay alone and being locked in my room rather than talking with him. My father would be so angry with that, he knocked my door so hard even he’s gonna break the door until he could come in to my room and shouted how bad girl I am. I cant stand with him, and talk with him. Those are the reason I don’t like him. I prefer to be called like my mom rather than like my dad. I was gonna be angry if someone told me that I am like my dad. I hate it when I should go to the city where he was born because I will meet a lot of people like him, and  I will never like it. I think that makes him to be a very quiet guy. He never talk to her children, not me, my brother or my sister. I am pretty sure they just feel the same like I do. He’s so quiet, he only talk with my mom. I and my sister, we actually have plenty words to say, but they are just stuck in my mind. It will end up with crying without saying because my dad hurts us a lot. It happens a lot.

But he is my daddy, no matter how. The man who picked me at 3 am in the morning even he knew that I took the car so we went home with different cars, just to make sure that I was driving home safely. The man who accompany me in the club because my band should perform there, and he, from office, directly came to the club with his working appearance. He must be very tired because he fell asleep in the club. That was so funny yet embrassing to see a man with the office appearance fell asleep in the club just to make sure that his daughter was safe. The man that who worry the most from days to days when he was told about the simple problem I had here. The man who was involved the most when I just would go for exchange to which he said “NO” at the first time. He is the one who create the “NO” but only for me, he’s gonna try to reach the “YES” himself. The man who stayed awake in the whole night just to help my mommy to make me some dress because I was upset about my mom’s making my sister a dress but she didn’t make me some. The man who gently made a lamp by himself for me and my friends to work in the whole night in order to bright us, oh and also take the beds and stuffs for us to sleep, something that I never imagine he could do before. the man that always be inside me every morning and afternoon in the car when I was in high school. The man that always accompany me every morning to buy the donuts and yoghurt when I was in the kindergarten. 

When I become someone someday, I wanna let him stand beside me and tell the world that the man standing beside me is the only reason why I wanna stand here to be someone. I am gonna tell the world that this man have taught me about the real life with his own way, no matter how hard  it is. And I am gonna let him watch me in the wedding day and say thanks, the word that would never be enough for him.

In this very hour my neck is sick, I feel like I really want to cry. It’s been almost a month I don’t see my dad and I’ve been missing him so much. I miss to argue with him in any kind of way.

the first time and the last time i watch the World Cup 2010

 

I had a long night in the previous day. I just got back home at around 2.30 and slept at around 4.30 am. Earn asked me whether I want to join with her to shop in Platinum, one of the cheap shopping center but I was not pretty sure. To be honest, I still wanted to buy some things. Just so you know, all things in Bangkok are BEYOND GREAT that perhaps couldn’t be found in Indonesia with that price. I really want to buy some more stuffs but I just realized that I run out of money and energy. So I didn’t wake up, and I found Earn had left to go shopping. I woke up in the late afternoon, I passed the breakfast and felt so damn hungry. I decided to stay at the apartment until noon and waited until Bow got home. I felt so tired and I just ended up with writing some blogs, chatting with couple of friends, browsing and else, until the noon came.

This day ended with a cool party. We went to Khao San road in which lots of tourists love to hang out. It was beyond awesome, the diversity mixed here and I saw many kind of people with the loud music, what a perfect match!. Chinese , western, even Arabic people enjoyed the crowd together. Many people there thought that I was Thai because I looked like really Thai, they said. When we were heading to the club, they asked me for the ID something in Thai. All Thai girls have the ID to come in, and they thought that I was Thai. I simply answer I was foreigner and they let me come in.  This place was officially my favorite place. I love the crowd and the diversity here. You can see the very drunk Englishmen were joking around with the Arabic baby who passed them by and they offer the baby the drink. It was so funny.

It was the grand final of World Cup anyway. I had never watched World Cup in my life time, I didn’t even know how I can enjoy watching the football match. But I felt so happy in that time and I just try to be in Bow’s side. We wanted SPAIN !. I enjoy the crowd a lot. A lot of Spain supporter were travelling around while singing and drinking and they were totally drunk, and also dancing with the loud music that was played. Not only Spain supporter, the Holand supporter also did the same, so that the crowd was mixed perfectly. I recorded them in my camera, I will show you some video if I have already known how to resize the video because its size was too big that I couldn’t upload it to my blogspot.

Finally I watched the football match!. Now I know why people, especially girls, really love to watch the football match. First, it made me so nervous especially when we take the country, and second, of course, CUTE GUYS. LOL. I just a bit regret  that I didn’t see the match since the very first time. but for my first and last time watching football match, I felt dead happy. Even I was in a huge and great party when I watched it. it was so nice. And it simply become much greater when SPAIN WIN ! since the very first time, the games had been so boring because there were no goals at all. I kept shouting “ME WANT GOALS” but still there were no goals. But when SPAIN finally made a goal and finally WIN , we scream so loud , we danced, we sang , aaaaaah I love the crowd a lot. So actually this was my beyond great first and last  world Cup watching in this year. WAKA WAKA EEE !

the city that never sleeps.

It was Saturday and I woke up so late because I was so damn tired. Earn and Yok, my roommate in that time had already left because they had a photo session with their friends in senior high school. When I woke up, there was no one in the room. Trust me, it was not good to wake up, and realize that you were in the middle of somewhere that you really don’t know, with no one beside you, didn’t know what to do. It was 9.30 am in the morning and I just woke up with the horrible feeling. No one i know and I was in the middle of the city in Thailand. I turned on my laptop, and wanna talk with someone to keep me company. Then I started to think that it would be so terrible if I just stayed in the apartment with nothing to do but chatting and browsing that I can always do in my home. I asked my friend to give me the link about the information about Bangkok, and I see the great market named Chatuchak weekend market. Then I decided to go there alone than only staying in the apartment and doing nothing. Then I took a bath, prepared for the adventurous day I was gonna have. 

This Saturday I had a plan to go to Cathucak Weekend Market to buy some stuff, it should be only ONE stuff, because I only had to buy one more thing. Cathucak weekend Market is reachable which mean I can only take an MRT to get there. It was awesome that one station of MRT is the entrance of Chatucak Weekend Market. I love it! because I could easily get there. I had been thinking of my walking alone the street to reach the Thailand Cultural Centre Station. I always love that kind of moment anyway. I assure you, you’re gonna love the moment you walk alone in another country, having no idea with the thing that could possibly happen to you. You cant even imagine when someone suddenly come to you and speak Thai, you cant totally understand what he says , and the one that you do is only answering him that I don’t understand Thai. It happened to me a lot. Since I walked alone along the street, there are a lot of people tried to talk with me and Thai. I also felt the situation when I walk alone in Indonesia, there will be so many boys sitting in the side of the road, trying to flirt on me. HAHA. I mean it, but I don’t feel it annoyed me, because they thought I was Thai, they spoke in Thai that I didn’t understand at all, I didn’t feel annoyed at all. ;p

I didn’t say that I felt miserable of travelling around Thai all to myself. I love something adventurous, and I simply love walking along the street alone. I saw many different things everyday, I love to pretend that I am Thai, I love to have a quality conversation with no one but myself, I love to see the cars that were just like my mommy’s car and someone’s car that could make me think that I am gonna get back home this august with a lot of new experiences to tell them, I love to breath the air, see the dogs around and tried to touch them even sometimes Thai people said to me something but I couldn’t understand. It was just awesome when you find yourself do something that you cant imagine before. Even to walk alone in my own country, I always feel miserable and think that it is no good at all to do such a thing. I never imagine that I did it, alone, in another country. I was lost in translation. But I always love to be lost in translation, how could it be not so adventurous?. But I think that that day I got a bonus. In the previous day, Bow has told me that she had a friend from England and Indonesia who were also now staying in Thai and also were interested to visit those kind of places for tourist. But I didn’t expect at all that that Saturday they were gonna come with me to go to Weekend Market. So I just left the apartment, thinking of going alone to buy some stuff and come back home again, until suddenly my phone was rung and someone texted me. The person said that he’s Tom, Bow’s friend and he’s gonna go to the Weekend Market with Jimmy, and asked me whether I wanted to come with them. I laughed so loud, even I received the message on my way to get the weekend market!. What a coincidence!. I always think that god always have a special plan for me. Trust me, when you try to be so grateful of having something that you don’t really like, when you try to enjoy every little time given no matter how miserable it is, you are definitely going to have something more!. Like me, that Saturday. God simply gave me a special bonus. I said to Tom that I was also heading to the market, and asked him whether we could meet in the market. They say yes, and i was ready to make a new friend. :D

I couldn’t imagine how big this market is. I think it was absolutely big that you could find any kind of things there. From clothing, bags, necklaces, many kind of accessories, shoes, mirrors, many kind of books, slippers, plates, glass, cups, lamps, even the animals like dogs, cats and rabbits were sold there. I couldn’t believe my eyes that almost anything here I like them the most. My eyes couldn’t get off of the ancient books, cute summer dresses, my favorite type of shoes, fascinating bags, and else. It made me really hard to chose one of them because anyway I only had a budget to buy one thing, that’s why I thought that it was not a good choice to go to Cathucak Market, the place that I can get whole things I need with the quite cheap price. So I decided to stop walking and waited for my new friends there. Finally there they were. One tall british  and one smaller dark Indonesian guy were coming to me with a smile. That moment was the beginning of my great long day with them, until drop. I mean really drop!. :D

After walking around the market and three of us so confused what to buy because there were a lot of things, we decided to go out of the market. Oh ya, I only got one small clutch bag with the elephant print, and Tom only got one ancient book. We don’t really like to walk around there because there were too many things that I wanted to buy, especially BAGS. I don’t know why but once I went to shopping center, I always fall in love with them. My eyes couldn’t stop starring at them like the first time I saw the cutest guy in the world. Tom love to close my eyes with his big hand everytime we passed the bags shop and when I couldn’t stop starring at them all.

After that, Jimmy recommended to get out of this place and go to other places. He recommended the golden mountain as our next destination. From Catuchak Weekend Market, we should take a bus to get somewhere near the golden mountain. We finally took the bus and we stopped in the monument which I didn’t know what its name, but it was always seen in the news when the red t-shirt protest happened. LOL. Then from that place, to get the golden mountain that actually the three of us still don’t know where exactly the place, we walked along the street. I think we walked too long because I couldn’t see the place that we could stop, we kept walking and walking. I felt so tired yet so fun to see around. Once we stopped to take a picture with the monks. I loved to take the picture everywhere, and annoyingly Tom asked Jimmy whether all Indonesian love to take the picture. I kicked his ass, haha. After giving up, we finally stop the tuktuk, one of cute transportation that I really like and ask the driver for direction. Finally we took the tuktuk, and it was beyond awesome to take this kind of transportation, and not forget, taking the picture!.

After going to the Golden mountain that unfortunately we couldn’t see the sunset from there because it was closed already, we decided to go home. We need to take the BTS, but it was a long long journey to get there. We need to walk in a far far distance, take the bus, and walk again, walk walk until we finally get the BTS. Oh yeah, before we took the BTS we walked along the Khao san Road, the road that was really full with the tourist. It was awesome. There were a lot of people selling Thai souvenirs and stuffs, books, summer clothing,  and even they sold many kind of drinks and there were also a lot of bar. This place was really awesome and I love to take the picture anywhere.

After going home, Tom suddenly asked me to go out tonight to the same place, Khao san Road. I think it was so crazy, even it was 9pm when he said that and we were still on the way back home.  I had no idea at what time we were gonna leave. So I didn’t take it so serious until I got back to the apartment. Just after I arrived home, I turn on the laptop, going to chat with my old friend in senior high school, until suddenly Tom texted me to meet in one BTS station. That was crazy because I just thought that I wont happen. It was 10.30, no one in the apartment, my clothing are all dirty, I didn’t know how to get there to meet Tom, but you know what? I still left!. Haha. This is what I call adventure. Because it took a very long time for me to get dress, Tom asked me to meet in the Khao San road which means that I should take taxi to get there. I never could imagine that I finally do that. at 10.30 in the night, I went somewhere taking the taxi. But I did it, nothing was happened, everything is beyond right, and I felt a lot of fun.

In Khao san road, I, tom, and Paul, one of Tom’s English friend, were having fun together. I mean it, even it was only the three of us there, but I did have fun. We told some jokes, walking around the street to see the drunk people acting so silly and laughed at them, even we stopped in side of the road and talked with the Thai gangster who finally speak his heart out, and told us that he just recently broke up with his girlfriend who cheated. I felt like I really wanna laugh. I just imagine that now I was in Indonesia and I talked with the gangster in the side of the road, I didn’t even think it would happen. But yes, I happened even when I was out of my country, it was so silly. I went back to the apartment by 2.30 in the morning, and I got home all alone by taxi. Amazing.

This Saturday was so amazing. I did a lot of things that I couldn’t think would happen to me. I did things that if I tell my mommy, she’s definitely gonna angry with me and if I tell mt friends, no one’s gonna believe me. Everything was beyond my expectation, and one thing that you should remember is that when you less expect to get things, and when you already feel enough of what you get, God will give you a special bonus for your life. Just enjoy every single thing happens to you, assure yourself that you are happy, then something more than just happiness will come to you that you couldn’t ever imagine. Think about it, it worked for me. :D

 

Well this is my second day I have been staying here. This is the day that I would never imagine. I woke up lately, like in the 9 or 10 am in the morning. I just felt tired in that time. When I was half asleep, I heard my friend were already awake and doing something but I just couldn’t open my eyes, because I was too tired. So I continue to sleep. When I woke up, earn was leaving already, she had to go to work, while Yok was still sleeping. I did not know what to do in this day, but Yok told me that I could go to MBK shopping center to buy some souvenirs  after that we could meet up to see her friend’s graduation. So after I woke up, I decide to take a bath and be ready to go to MBK. I decide to go there alone, because I didn’t want to wake Yok up.

I finally left this apartnment. One thing I remembered I should do was walking along the street to reach MRT station. I already remember how the MRT station was so I walked along the street while looking around. It was a great city. It was crowded like in Indonesia, they also had a traffic jam but I just like the way they take care of their city. All is clean and beautiful. Finally I arrived at the MRT station. They actually have the same system like in Malaysia, but the difference is the MRT uses coins while train in Malaysia, uses cards. I always love using this kind of train. they all are well-organized and it really makes everything easy for tourists. We can see many kind of signs in English and they all are really detail that it wont make you lost.

I always love this moment. Walking along the street alone and see many new things around. My mind was just elsewhere and totally free. I could daydream about anything I want, I could have a quality conversation with myself, oh sometimes I should backpack to somewhere else all to myself. It would be so great.

After arrive at the nearest MRT station, as Yok’s commands, I should go to Si Lom station to reach the BTS station and stop in national stadium to go to MBK shopping center. Sometimes I was confused about everything because it seemed really new, and it’s kind of weird when people tried to talk to me in Thai because they thought I was thai girl. I could only say ‘I am sorry, I don’t understand’ and left. Sometimes I kept thanking to God everytime I found people who could answer my question in English. Some of them tried to ask me where I am from, how long I have been here and so on. People must really say that this is the land of smile. 

I finally arrived at MBK. At the first time I didn’t know where is exactly the MBK. I just walk along the street and tried to find some sign written in English. But still I couldn’t find the MBK. In about 100 meters, I saw mcd. I decided to have a brunch there because I had not had the breakfast yet. After having the brunch, I decided to come in to the mall where the McD is, and stupid me, this mall was actually the MBK. So I came in. 

It was a very very big and crowded mall. Many tourists are there and there are also a lot of thai souvenirs. I was so excited. I walked from one shop to another to see which one is cheaper (my very typical ;p). I bought some Thailand small notebooks for my friends, and also small Thailand purchases for .. well I don’t know exactly for who, but I was gonna give them to some people. After that, again and again I couldn’t take my eyes from bags!. There are a lot of discount and I just couldn’t write down to explain how I was so excited about the prices. Most of them are cheap, even too cheap. I bought two bags from one store, one for me, one for my mommy as a present for her next birthday on 24^th September. So I really have to keep it well. ;p. I also bought the purchase for my father as a birthday present also on 31^st august. After feeling enough to buy things, finally something made me interested a lot. ANOTHER FASCINATING BAG and they were only 199baht. I finally couldn’t help it and bought one for myself.

After a tiring shopping activity that hurt my feet a lot, I met up with Yok to go to her friend’s graduation. We walked from MBK to her University ; it was actually not really far. In the outside of the university, we could see many people selling gifts for the graduated students, such as flowers, dolls , even car police number look-a-like. They all were cute and I think this was the difference between the graduation here and in Indonesia. They do have a lot of things to be given, LOL.

It was very crowded in the graduation. The freshmen of this university travelled around the campus to cheer their senior in a very funny way and after that they could be paid by the senior  they were cheering to. It was awesome. All of the girls are absolutely beautiful. They consider the graduation day and wedding day the day they should be as beautiful as they can be. I really love the atmosphere. I accompanied my friend to see some of her friends in their graduation day.

 

first day

It’s only been two days here, but it’s like forever that I am totally excited. I am now staying at Bow’s apartment going nowhere because yesterday I just lost my energy like totally. It’s really fun yet adventurous here. I should tell you the whole things since the first time I came here. it is beyond my expectation , my experience here. :D it’s like I really want to have an extra week living hereee ! I adore Bangkok a lot  ! ;)

I arrived here in bangkok at around 5 in the afternoon. As the direction that Bow had given to me, I went to 4^th floor to catch the taxi. I took the pink taxi and the stupid mistake that I made is that I asked first to the taxi driver , how much should I pay him to take me to ratchada soi, the road where Bow’s apartment is. He told me it could be 300 baht. I should have not paid the taxi that expensive if I did not ask the taxi driver first and realized that the taxi used the meter. Wth ?!. but it’s better than getting lost because it’s really my first time travelling here alone. The taxi driver did not understand English at all. Bow’s right that almost people there speak horrible English. So I found the difficulties to tell the driver about the apartment’s address. Even he call one of his friend to talk with me in English because he did not understand ; even when I showed him the address (let him read). Along ratchada street, I felt like the taxi driver did not really get it , so I called bow to talk with the taxi driver, finally , I arrived in the apartment. A very big apartment.

When I am going to come in to the building, I just realized that they need a finger tip to open the door. Because I am not the owner, I couldn’t open the door of the building. I asked the security to open the door and explain them that I am a friend of people who live here and I need to come in to her room. The security did not understand, he just asked me to ask my friend to go downstair. How could I ? the room is empty!. I tried hard to explain them in english but again they didn’t understand so I called Bow to let them speak with her. Finally I was asked to go to the office an they said that they want to copy my passport. Eeew ! until a long long process, finally they opened me a door and I can go upstairs to find the room number 38. There I found the key under the door. Finally I could come in and leave those stupid securities.

When I entered the room, I was kind of shocked to read some papers on the door. It is all about the great places here in Bangkok and how I could go there, Bow’s and her roommate’s telepon number , and a message telling me that Bow’s gonna be out of province until Sunday evening. Okay, that time when I just came here was Thursday which mean I need to go alone by myself for 3 days and I don’t know how. I kept thinking of how I can survive here alone for three days with no friends no food. I couldn’t easily go in and out of this building because it’s gonna take much time. should I be checked in the office if I want to come again to this building ? it was freak. That’s too bad because all people here speak horrible English and it will be fucking hard for me to go anywhere. Even I couldn’t understand the direction that Bow wrote. That’s horrible. I just thought that I was gonna just stay in the apartment until Wednesday, when I get my flight back to Malaysia.  

Then I open my laptop, thanks god they do have a wifi. I feel like I really want to cry, I am gonna be stuck there until Sunday and I wont like it. I told my online friend and tell all of them about my condition here. Some of them gave me great advices but some of them just gave me some shit that made me down lower. I did not know what to do, and I was hungry to death. They do have noodle but I didn’t know how to make it, hahaha. I feel like this is just the end of my life.

After waiting almost 2 hours by browsing, chatting, and updating all my social networking account, finally somebody knocked on the door. When I opened the door, I saw two girls bringing big flowers. I didn’t know who they are but they immediately recognized who I am and told me that they both are Bow’s friend. They also came with a woman and a little girl, I think they were her family. They just went home after the graduation. I felt a bit uncomfortable but then I tried to talk a lot with them until finally they asked me to go dinner with her family and of course I said yes ! finally I was out!. They took me to the japannesse restaurant in one mall along the street. They were too kind to me and I was really excited. Okay, I forget to mention their name. They are Yok and Earn.

I FINALLY ate ! and I ate a lot o sushi that night!. Can you imagine? When you thought that you felt hungry a lot and you thought that you’re not gonna eat for the whole three days, but finally someone brought you to the restaurant serving you a very delicious favorite foods FOR FREE. I kept thanking God about it, it was just awesome. Her family are also nice too. They cant speak English so they just don’t speak with me but they tried to ask me to order more food even I was full already in that time. They also were very excited to show me their photos from the wallet and told me about anything. They also taught me a little how to write Thailand words. It was damn complicated that I couldn’t make it ;p

Finally I can say that it’s not as bad as I thought before. I still can have friends here even Bow is not here. They are so nice and kind. In the next day I was asked to join them to come to their friend’s graduation. I excitedly said yes of course. I wont leave this opportunity to see the graduation here. Finally I could sleep well. I was so ready to have fun in this city! Yeay !

trip to bangkok, alone.

this is my 15th day in malaysia. i only have 30 days for visa here, which means i should go to another country to get another 30-day visa. at the first time, i and three other interns in indonesia had a plan to go to singapore, but because of different arrival to malaysia, i couldnt join with them. Then i decided to go to Bangkok. First, because i am dead curious about Thailand, second i have a friend there- Bow - whom i can sleepover in her apartment. beside, its gonna be much much cheaper. LOL. so here now , at the verry hour, i am in Kuala Lumpur International Airport. I catch some wifi in McD. LOL.

this is thursday and it's the D - Day in which i should go to Bangkok all alone from KL. i woke up at 8 am, and should leave my two roommates because they had not waken up. At first they said that they want to come with me in the airport and joke around until my plane takes off. But when i really should leave, they had not woken up, and i really did not want to wake them up, so i left them. The shelter's driver took me right to the airport. Oh, they all are really nice. i feel so blessed. :) they even asked me to have a breakfast first, but i told them that i just want to go, and i can have a breakfast in KLIA, even of course it will be much more expensive.

now , i am already at KLIA. I am having a brunch in McD and just starring at everyone who's coming and going all alone. It is such a great experience that i am gonna head to Bangkok all alone, to go to bow's apartment (i should go to bow's apartment alone by taxi because today is bow's graduation day, i just dont want to disturb her big day, so i told Bow that i am gonna take Taxi).

this is the first time i travel abroad alone. i feel like great that i find the spoiled and dependable girl like me finally can grow up to face such kind of thing. i know that perhaps 4 hours later i will find so many troubles out there just after i arrive in the country that i really dont know the language, that i should solve those problems one by one all to myself. But this is what i call experience. i am gonna pay evertything to get one precious thing called experience. even this is my very first step to start other great lonely travel to the rest of the world! :D

hope for the children :)

I’ve been here for more than a week.  By living together with them, all unfortunate people and glorious people who totally help this shelter, I feel so complete. I cant stop thanking to god that I have such a lovely mother who always wakes me up softly to pray every morning, and always be there when I get home, ready to hear everything I wanna tell. I also cant stop thanking to god that I still have a father who always tries to accomplish every little thing I want, even I never talk a lot with him. I also still have one lovely home in which I own one comfortable and lovely room where nobody can never disturb me there. I cant wait the time I come back home, to see the gate of my house, to smell the morning air around the neighbor, feeding my lovely cats, tidy up my room, and feel how grateful I am given this wonderful family that I still can live with.

I live here with the unfortunate children. Many of them don’t have a parent, many of them are really poor that their parent cant take care and grow them up, so they were sent to this shelter. They are in several ages. Some of them are still 7 or 8, some of them are around 12 to 19. Some of them went to school, but some of them stay in the shelter to do things like cleaning the room and else. This shelter is owned by a very glorious husband and wife whom all the children here call him ‘ayah’. He’s absolutely great and way so inspirational. This couple of husband and wife also created a shelter in Egypt. Most children here who already finished their high school, continue to study in Egypt. These two great people financially support and also build the shelter for them to live. Everytime, people don’t stop give this shelter helps. From days to days, I always see people give this shelter foods, such as instant noodles, chocolates, biscuits, and any other needs. They also always give such a food like pizza hutt, McD, KFC, and else. That makes me happy a lot. Because I can eat chocolates and biscuits as much as I can in my room , LOL :p and not only people who give this shelter help, but also companies. Yesterday I just knew that this shelter was given 10 units of laptop and computers, air conditioners , washing machines,  even two cars, and wifi. I really wish all these helps can give impacts to the unfortunate children here so that they will do have and reach their dreams.  

This is 7 am in here. I just woke the children up for praying and also for school. When I woke them up, they moved too slowly and too lazy. Some of them just stay in their bed doing nothing, until I told them that the car is waiting, they finally got dressed, WITHOUT TAKING A BATH. Some of them took a bath only for five minutes. Some of them just told me that she was dizzy and not able to go to school. After telling the manager here, she said that it was only an excuse so that she could not go to school.  She said this kind of thing happened a lot. Sometimes they all hide somewhere that people couldn’t find to sleep and they all don’t go to school. It was absolutely horrible and I had nothing left to say about this. The manager was really mad and got angry with her and as always, she shouted to almost all of the children here. This little girl then cried in her bed while getting dressed for school. Based on this situation, I try to put myself, in their age, in this kind of condition. If I were them, I would feel everything sucks. I should be far from my mom and my family, I had no one to tell about my feeling, that I were too tired being shouted by person who’s not even my family everyday, I would also be too tired that should be awake until late night to do some exercises and should wake up in the very very early morning to go to school which will end at seven in the evening. I would also feel everything suck because when the manager shouts at me about anything, I would be missing my mom who had sent me here, I would be missing the situation with love together with my family. I would feel everything sucks when I was only 7 and I should survive here alone to prepare my clothes for school tomorrow while I should have been so happy surrounded by my family. By thinking this, I couldn’t help to cry to see this little girl cry. I could understand totally about her feeling, I totally understand that her mind in that time was shouting how this world is so cruel. I understood her totally that everything that she needs are warmth hugs and lots of cares. :’)

I love to spend my times with these children. They always ask me about anything. They asked me about Indonesia, about the foods there, and asked me whether I had once met their favorite artists in Indonesia. They love to hear me share them a story about everything happening in my country. Sometimes I showed them a video on youtube about Indonesia. Their round big eyes couldn’t stop rolling and it is absolutely cute J one day they asked me when I will get back home to Indonesia. I answered on 10^th august, the first day of fasting days. With their innocent faces, they said that I must not come back home to Indonesia. Even if I really should, I should take them all with me. It was absolutely touching and I just cant imagine how I could leave them all when august comes. They asked a lot how it feels to be in the plane as if I will really take them to Indonesia. They said they were too afraid to fly and they said that they also want to take their mommy. That was the point that hurts my neck a lot and I was almost crying in that time. they always come to my room and ask me to play with them. Sometimes I was busy with such a task and stuffs. One thing that made my neck hurt again is that they always try to find my handphone and ask me how to call their mom. I know how it feels to be the 7-year-old girl and miss my mommy, I know how sucked it is. :’(

I feel complete to share my happiness here. Everyday I teach them English and I try hard to give them the best. Sometimes I daydream that someday, they will be someone, great people, and I will remember that their steps started from the classes I have ever made for them. I wish they could be whatever they want to be someday. I wish in the future, they will come back to the shelter as someone who help and already be the very successful person in this country. I really wish that they can be more than I am. I really wish finally they could smile in the end. J

 

 

fascinating I CITY in the night :D

i adapt so fast here. foods , place, working hour , even with people. at the first 3 days, we a bit jobless just because the time line was just too random. We spent most of our time at office using the internet connection to chat or checking facebook. but i started to love being in this place, and everything just seemed to be normal. people here are nice. Even the place is quite far with the center of the city which we can find everything we need, they always served us a driver that can take us there. i simply love it. eida , one of the staff here , asked me whether i have something to buy in supermarket or not. we went out while the car picking up the children from school , so i had a chance to see where the children's school is. It was quite far from the shelter. after picking up the children , we were heading to buy some nasi lemak which we can get with only RM 2. i dont really like nasi lemak. It is like nasi uduk in indonesia but it is not more tasty than it. after that , eida asked us to go to I CITY, and i just realized that I CITY was absolutely awesome. 

48 hours experiencing the more

This is my second day I am here. I and Lily woke up so late today, just shame on us that the children woke us up by knocking the door , asked us to have a branch. I admit I was really emberassing , but I told the children that I had a long tiring night , that I did not wake up earlier. They are cute. They came to my room , and when I finished my shower , they saw me use the lotion , sunblock , lip gloss , comb and hair dry-ing my hair , put the deodorant , they did not put their eyes off of me. One of them ask me to try the lip gloss. Hahaha they are too cute to be true. 

After that , we had a lunch and just joking around with the children until 5 pm we have to go out to have a dinner with other interns in other projects of AIESEC. Like usually , uncle firdaus , our driver , took us to the bus stop and we should to take the 70 bus to go to the train station. The café was near the Asia Jaya train station. So we reach the nearest train station from where we were which is KL Sentral train station. I love the moment in the bus. I and Lily always laugh at someone whos funny freely , doing something insane and stupid, talk about everything because most of them (perhaps) don’t understand us. LOL. Most people are always starring at me and Lily , perhaps because we talked too much in English. Just so you know , Lily’s voice was so loud. ;P one of them tried to speak with us. He gave so many recommended place that we could go. I just cant wait to try them one by one on my other weekends! Yeay. I also love to see around because there we could always see the Indians sell everything related to India , like flowers and else. I love to see their cultures. Sometimes, I wanna see Ta jMahal. Not wanna , MUST!

After arrived in Asia Jaya Train station , we walk to the Piccadelly Café which is not really far from the train station. I and Lily were going to ask people around about the café , but most of them don’t understand English and Bahasa , and most of them don’t know where Piccadelly café is too. Lily was getting mad , she shouted ‘stupid country’ more than twice , and I just laughed to see her mad.

I and Lily had a great time in Piccadelly café with other interns. We talked much about everything. Most interns from India love to speak about the world cup, and the interns from UK , they love to speak about many great places in Malaysia. They also said that they really wanna try Durian. They got curious. ;p

We went home by train again. Just see the scenery from the train in the afternoon, it was just perfct. I love it a lot .

Leave everything behind you , look ! something in the future is calling you to come !

Go exchange ! :D